Fact: when I lived alone during art school, I played the movie Clueless (play, stop, rewind, repeat) for hours on end, just to keep me company.
Fact: in high school, I watched the animated Beetlejuice that aired on MuchMusic, every day. Before and after school. Regardless of the fact that it was the same episode.
Fact: when I’m fuming with anger, the only thing I can do is throw myself on the bed and crack open a novel.
Fact: being alone and quiet is a real challenge for me. The need to fill space (be it right or wrong) is strong. The radio is always on. The chime of the CBC hourly news rings comforting among the sounds of the house. It reminds me that despite the silence, I am not alone. Don’t get me wrong, I consider myself quite independent. I can do alone quite easily.
But Silence? I’d rather jump into oncoming traffic. Or listen to a Mariah Carey interview.
The need to fill my senses with stories that take me away, well it’s just too strong to resist. The only times I can face it is a) in the pool and b) in the garden. But let me tell you, the fear of that silence has stopped me from swimming many times before.
So maybe this is a systemic shift, that we are all experiencing, maybe it’s my own stuff. Regardless, these couple of pieces have definitely gotten my attention and held it for more than 140 characters.
I”m taking suggestions for books and more podcasts if you’ve got something that you absolutely love! please share!